Saturday, August 21, 2010

The Monster Sin... And Finding Our Way Out Of The Woods

It seems sometimes... that no matter how hard we try, we just cannot escape that monster in our lives that is sin. We so often venture off the path that God has chosen for us to seek new adventures. Often times these adventures take us into a deep, dark forest, and we easily lose our way... becoming lost amongst the trees where the canopy above is so thick, the sun, moon and stars are blocked from our view. We therefore cannot determine North from South... East from West. We have no idea how to get back to that path we were on before we foolishly, and knowingly, turned our backs on our guide and ventured out on our own. When we turn our backs on our guide, venturing out on our own, that is when we become lost in the wilderness and prey to that monster called sin. It can creep up on us... stalking us from the shadows before it pounces teeth barred claws extended, howling in rage, hunger, and hatred... to destroy us... to devour us... consume our flesh and spit out our bones. Sometimes it prefers to pursue as we flee in fear... running with tears in our eyes and a scream we just can't get past our throat... as branches and thorns from the trees scratch and scrape our skin, drawing blood. The beast smells our blood and pursues with greater passion... it's roar echoing amongst the trees. Sometimes it calls to us in a soft, seductive voice like a siren from Greek mythology... intending to lure us willingly to our own doom as it would a ship at sea to come crashing upon the rocks ashore.

We tend to think that there is no way God could forgive our sins... that they are too disgusting in His sight, that they are too many for Him to forgive. We forget sometimes as christians, that we are already forgiven...our sins of the past, present, and future are forgiven if we believe and accept Christ as Savior. Non-christians who believe there is a God, but will not accept Him, sometimes think that their sins are too great, too disgusting, and too many for Christ to forgive. People... and I've become reminded of this myself recently... God uses sinners and misfits and "bad" people all the time. He always has... we all are these things in one way or another. Moses was a murderer and God used him to lead His people out of Egypt. David was an adulterer and God made him King of Israel. Paul was a persecutor and killer of christians... God used him to preach salvation to the gentiles. Peter denied Christ right to his face and later lead thousands to Him.

If we simply call out to Him, He will welcome us back lovingly and set us back upon the path we were on before. Should we repent? I think so. We are responsible for our actions, for our sins... I think we should fess up... of course He knows what we've done already anyway. But He gives us salvation and grace... and love not of this world.

If you are not a christian, but want forgiveness of your sins, ask the Lord, Jesus into your heart, and to forgive your sins... to make you a new creature in Christ.

God saves us despite our flaws... He forgives us no matter what we've done.

Romans 5:6-11 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life! Not only is this so, but we also rejoice in God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have now received reconciliation.

God bless,
Tony

Monday, May 10, 2010

Heavy Heart, Blessed Hope

You told us you would soon return...
Why Lord do you tarry?
It seems this world on fire burns
In it's ashes we are buried.

Dark clouds loom on the horizon...
What message do they carry?
Are wars and famines coming soon?
Have we no time to tarry?

My heart is heavy with such news...
If we near these end of days,
To think that I shall surely go,
As others surely here shall stay.

Yet truly I and others wait...
Upon a timing God's alone,
We wait upon our Blessed Hope
To finally bring us home.

When you hear of wars and rumors of wars, do not be alarmed; this must take place, but the end is still to come. 8 For nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kingdom; there will be earthquakes in various places; there will be famines. This is but the beginning of the birth pangs."
Mark 13:7-8

"Behold, I am coming soon! My reward is with me, and I will give to everyone according to what he has done. I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End.
Revelation 22:12-13

Thursday, March 25, 2010

"You Were Never Alone..."

He had long ago taken off his armor and helmet, bundled up along with his shield... His sword had not left it's scabbard for years it seemed.After ascending and descending one mountain after another, the lone warrior looked out at the barren, rocky landscape ahead... no water for as far as his eyes could see. The dark clouds above him were always there, always blocking out the sun, always blocking out the light... always making the day as dark as night, yet never giving any rain. "Just another trial" he thought. "I can do this." Forcing his tired legs to move, he continued onward. Constantly, as he stumbled across the broken ground, he heard the voices as they whispered in his ear...
"Jusssst give up and give in," hissing like a serpent. "there issss no hope for you, you will never make it to your sssssooo called paradissssse." The warrior needed life giving water.. his tongue felt swollen, his lips cracked. He needed food... his hunger made him weak, it would be so easy to lay down and let death take him. But he continued on, holding on to the hope that he would make it to his destination. Continuing on he saw a tree... a beautiful single pecan tree in the middle of nothingness. Making it to the tree, the tired warrior could go no further. Trying unsuccessfully, to reach a branch and some pecans, he stumbled and fell to his knees in exhaustion. It was then he noticed the steep decline of the terrain into a valley below. An army of evil... an army of sin, of demons was amassed below him... beyond them was his destination. He could see his paradise glowing like a bright torch beyond the demons, on the other side of the valley... yet he could go no further. And there was that serpent like whisper...
"Jussssst give in... jussssst give up... there issssss no hope." The warrior shook his head in anger at the voice, pounded the ground with his fist, "NO!" the warrior cried. "Please, my Lord," he prayed to the God he hadn't prayed to for what seemed ages. "Help me."
Lightning flashed in the darkness and a wind blew hard in his face, whipping his hair about his face, blowing stinging dust into his eyes... the warrior wanted to curse but held his tongue as three good sized pecans fell from the tree and to the ground in front of him. Shakily, he picked up a stone and cracked the shells of all three, quickly devouring the nut inside, as a heavy rain began to fall. He grabbed his helmet, turning it upside down to gather some water and drank of it.
Feeling his strength return, he looked down on the army of evil and sin below and rose to his feet. He strapped on his armor, his breastplate, his helmet, his shield... he looked across at the paradise across the valley, and raised his sword in defiance at the enemy below him. The voice grew louder in his ear, agitated, and full of haste to "Jusssst give UP!"
The warrior almost chuckled, and with sword raised high... bellowed in as loud a voice as he could muster... "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH MY LORD WHO STRENGTHENS ME!!!!" And the sun peaked from behind the clouds behind him, shining its warm rays upon him.... shining it's brightness on the sword held high, the blade and crossbar creating the shadow of a cross down on the evil below... down on the sin and the demons below, casting them out of the valley screaming in fear. The serpent like voice screamed in anger "NOOOOO!!!!" as the warrior, strength renewed, with sword held high... walked down and across the valley to the other side.... and into paradise.

Ephesians 6:10-17
10Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. 12For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

Philippians 4:13
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Monday, March 1, 2010

The Black Stink Of Sin

Who are you? I can... I can feel you, somehow, looking upon this dark heart of mine with... love? Why? Why! Do you not know what I've done? Do you not know what I'm capable of? DO YOU KNOT KNOW WHAT I HAVE DONE? Answer me... please. HOW LOUD MUST I SHOUT FOR YOU TO ANSWER? I still feel only this sense of love from you. LOOK AT ME! LOOK INSIDE ME! LOOK INTO THIS HEART SO FULL OF SIN! Look into this heart so full of hate, greed, lust, pride, and murder and explain to me how you can love this... this... cursed dog of a man that I am! Wickedness am I... it literally oozes from my pores like a black oily sweat with the stench of decay! Look as it drips from my brow into my eyes... blinding me to anything but the sin that I cling to like a fearful child clings to his mother! How can you possibly love this wretched soul that I am? How? I AM CURSED!!! Cursed to hell one day! Can you take that away? Can you save me from Death's cold lifeless fingers dragging me down into the fires that await me... THE FATE I DESERVE?

I still feel this sense of love....
I STILL feel this sense of love.... and forgiveness.
Thank You

Romans 5:6-8
You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Add Some Fuel To The Fire

This tiny little verse spoke volumes to me today...

"No one lights a lamp and puts it in a place where it will be hidden, or under a bowl. Instead he puts it on its stand, so that those who come in may see the light. Luke 11:33

How many of us christians after receiving something so great as salvation from our Lord are too... shy to display or rather show our faith to others? When the Lord forgives our sins and we become christians we often hear things such as being "on fire for God" meaning we want to learn more and more about Christ, and we want to share these things with others. But often we, even those who have been christian thier whole life, tend to shy out or not even attempt to share our faith with others. We worry, "I wonder what these people will think of me if I start talking about God and Jesus." This unfortunatley, because of the vanity in our lives, often keeps us from sharing the truth of the gospel with someone who may really need it, or even be seeking it! We are more worried about our own popularity, than we are with someones salvation! I myself have been guilty of this from time to time! The thing is, we recieved a light to shine forth in a darkened world, to hold up high, to help light a path for others to follow to Christ. The higher we raise this light the better people can see where they are going, even to help ourselves so that we do not trip and fall in our own walk on this path. The more we lower this light, perhaps because we are afraid it may hurt someones eyes, the less we can see, and the less they can see. Eventually we may hide this light entirely, like covering it with a bowl. You take a candle, add a bowl. The candle then has no oxygen to fuel the fire and the flame... dies. It's time we ceased to hide our fires inside, but to hold them up as high as we can, and even add a little gasoline to the mix to create an explosion within not only ourselves, but to other christians. And to create a fire so big that anyone, no matter how dark the road they travel, can see for miles as everything around them is lit up like the Fourth of July.

I pray that anyone reading this will be blessed, that christians who read this may show thier faith more often, and that they pray for me as well, so that I may do the same.

My Lord, My Savior, My King

this is an old entry from one of my other blogs that I was reading through and decided to post here.... if anyone reads it, I hope and pray it speaks to you.

My Lord, My Savior, My King
Mon Dec 11, 2006 12:32 pm



Lord...I look upon You and I weep. With every strike of the mallet upon the nail, another tear comes to my eyes as I wince at the pain in my heart, as You gasp at the pain in Your hands and Your feet. How Lord? Why? Why do You consider one such as myself worthy of such sacrifice? Why do You bleed for a sinner as sinful and filthy as myself? How can You look upon me and see me as worthy of being saved? I want to scream, "Save Yourself! Son of God, You command the power of the angels! Order them Lord to destroy those who would see Your destruction upon this instrument of torturous death! This horrible instrument of bloodletting!!! Comand the angels Lord!" And I weep, knowing however, You will not do this. I know You will allow Yourself to die so I might be saved, as unworthy as I am. And I watch as they raise Your cross and nail upon it 'King of the Jews'. And despite the anguish I feel for You a part of me chuckles, not just King of the jews, but King of all mankind.

Yes my Savior, I weep in sadness and despair at this inhuman murderous act inflicted upon You....No....I was wrong. This is NOT inhuman. This is what we have become Lord! This.....is who we are. We could not BE more human than now. We have become a wretched, murderous, adulterous, lying, thieving people! Why does God the Father not strike us down this very hour? It is what we deserve! Yet, God's love is so strong that He would sacrifice You, His only Son to pay for the judgement of our penalty? The price for this penalty is death! We deserve no less!!! My Lord why do You allow this? Oh yes...It is for our salvation. And I thank you Lord, yet the pain You have indured is so great. I saw You whipped and beaten. I saw them place a crown of thorns upon Your head. I saw them mock You and spit upon You, as You carried Your cross...And I see You now up there upon that very same cross struggling to breathe and I wonder how we will survive when You're gone. But, I believe You will return Lord. Soon, to finally set things right.

I weep in both sadness and joy as I hear You speak those final words, my Savior. With those final words spoken by Your mouth as You breathe Your last breath, I know there will be many battles to come. Yet with those words the war itself is over. Those final, beautiful words..."It is finished."

Thank You Jesus. My Lord. My Savior. My King.


Have you ever wondered what it would have been like if you had been present at Christ's crucifixion? What would you have thought? What would you have said? Would you even have been able to look upon Him without falling to your knees in despair? Would you have been able to see through all the tears in your eyes? There is no greater example of love than Christ's suffering for us. Remember that.

God bless

To Trust The Hand That Guides...

To Trust The Hand That Guides...

I really felt like posting a new one today.... but couldn't find the right words. So I checked out one of my old blogs and found this, and it works out fine. This one was done around the New Year as well, and of course.... seems I haven't been following my own advise again. Seems I've been getting real good at trusting myself and not God lately, and as usual it leaves me in a mess. I guess I'll renew the following New Years resolution.... Pray I get it right this time.



Psalm 32:8

The Lord says, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your Life. I will advise you and watch over you.

Why do we have such a hard time allowing God to guide our lives along the best pathway for us? Well THIS is a question I am asking myself this moment. Why do I keep trying to live my life the way I want to live my life, even knowing that everytime I do this it only leads to disaster? I'm sure some of you who may read this may find yourselves asking the same question. Would it not be better to allow God to take us by the hand and lead us to where HE wants us to be? Sure, some of you may say if God is going to lead us, He is going to just do that! He'll take our hand and lead us whether we know it or not! No....I don't think so. You see, we have been given a free will. We tend to forget that sometimes I think. My best guess is we have to be WILLING to allow Him to lead us. He may extend his hand to us.....but we have to take that hand. We have to grasp His with our own! And yet I seem to have a hard time doing this myself. I know I should just trust in The Lord enough to let HIM lead ME. And this is how a relationship with Him should be! Many times I have had friends of mine come up to me and ask my advise on relationships with thier boyfriend or girlfriend or husband or wife. Many times they are having an issue involving trust whereas they dont trust thier significant other or the significant other doesn't trust them. This could involve many things and I always tell them the same thing. And I truly believe this to be true......YOU CAN NOT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITHOUT TRUST! Uh oh.....that's just it isn't it? I haven't been trusting enough in the Lord to allow Him to lead me. I have NOT been following my very own advice in the most important relationship of all! A relationship with my Lord Jesus Christ! Oh my......that's not good at all. Anyone else having this problem? Well here we are going into a new year....and in doing so a chance to start things anew in all parts of life, especially our walk with God. And so as my New Years resolution I intend to reach out my hand, and take the hand of my Savior, and trustingly allow Him to guide me. I hope you all do the same.

God Bless you all, and Happy New Year!
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